This was the first time we’ve both ever eaten squash. We were never exposed to unique foods. Crusty Kale Chips or squash dip or Indian food. Just microwave dinners or home cooked meals. Sitting on my damp leather sofa, we dipped my 4 day old tostitos and said our future plans. Maybe in this moment, we were both escaping problems we didn’t want to face. So we made ourselves numb to the point that maybe the love we’ve experienced or the love we’ve seen were just myths. Maybe I’ll see her next year and remind her that one time we first tried squash. The time where we everything was uncertain.